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Wednesday, December 30

A R G H ! T H E H O R R O R O F T O M O R R O W ... I'M F R E A K E D !!

rambled @10:56 PM

Tuesday, December 29

Story of my life

Searching for the right

But it keeps avoiding me

Sorrow in my soul

Cause it seems that wrong

Really loves my company

He's more than a man

And this is more than love

The reason that the sky is blue

The clouds are rolling in

Because I'm gone again

And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful

And it kills him inside

To know that I am happy with some other guy

I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore

I don't wanna be the reason why

Everytime I walk out the door

I see him die a little more inside

I don't wanna hurt him anymore

I don't wanna take away his life

I don't wanna be...

A murderer

I feel it in the air

As I'm doing my hair

Preparing for another date

A kiss upon my cheek

As he reluctantly

Asks if I'm gonna be out late

I say I won't be long

Just hanging with the girls

A lie I didn't have to tell

Because we both know

Where I'm about to go

And we know it very well

Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful

And it kills him inside

To know that I am happy with some other guy

I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore

I don't wanna be the reason why

Everytime I walk out the door

I see him die a little more inside

I don't wanna hurt him anymore

I don't wanna take away his life

I don't wanna be...

A murderer

Our love, his trust

I might as well take a gun and put it to his head

Get it over with

I don't wanna do this

Anymore

Anymore (anymore)

I don't wanna do this anymore

I don't wanna be the reason why

And everytime I walk out the door

I see him die a little more inside

And I don't wanna hurt him anymore

I don't wanna take away his life

I don't wanna be...

A murderer (a murderer)

No no no no

Yeah yeah yeah

rambled @4:09 PM

from what i can see i do,

its all i see i am hurting you,

deep down inside i feel guilt,

and thats where my sadness is built.

i've shattered your fragile heart,

i pierced your feelings,

with a very sharp harmful dart,

with all my wrong doings.

after shattering it,

the glass pieces scattered on the floor,

i have only realised when i stepped on it,

its a pain i cannot endure.

i feel triumph to have you as a friend,

i obtained a pure kind soul,

i handled you carelessly,

and i caused you sorrow.

you're so kind, too kind,

it hurts me to realise what i've been doing,

scratching and scarring the crystal glass heart,

i have not carefully been appreaciating.

i deserve divine punishment,

and i will accept it no matter how severe,

you deserve better,

for i am just someone you should litter.

rambled @1:50 AM

Monday, December 28

对不起贤

我很抱歉尹！我真的

很好

对不起

我们没有

意思

伤害你

如此糟糕！

我很抱歉

我真的很

对不起

对不起！！

rambled @7:05 PM

Sunday, December 27

わたしは、あなたを愛しています
私はちょうど言うことはできない
私を知っている
しかし、先ほど
隠れる
痛い
とを知っている
あなたは私を与える
希望の風船
その後、私の顔を見てポップ
を吸う。
けちな人

rambled @3:14 AM

Saturday, December 26

Lets tart by correcting ya tone

lower ya finger, don't be comin' at me

with your condescending demeanor

we both know that ya dead wrong

and what makes itworse you don't even have the nerve

to ever say that you're sorry

you're never wrong and i'm never right and

you win all the rounds and every fight

that's why

can't stay another day when you're always

gettin' your way, you just keep gettin' your way

you just keep gettin' your way, ya selfish!

so i decided not to get in your way

its time to do it my way and that means

gettin' away from you, ya selfish!

how is it that you can look at us and ony see you

you can look at one but, never would you ever see two

you can live a lie and never be true

it's so funny now, how completely i can see you

you're nevr wrong and i'm never right and

you win all the rounds and every fight

thats why

can't stay another day when you're always

gettin' your way, you just keep gettin' your way

you just keep gettin' your way, ya selfish!

so i decided not to get in your way

it's time to do it my way and that means

gettin' away from you, ya selfish!

no we don't need to talk

ain't nothin' left to say

you got everything ya want

go ahead and grab ya cake

i know what's best for me

we go our seperate ways

leaving you with everything

even all the pain

can't stay another day when you're always

gettin' your way, you just keep gettin' your way

you just keep gettin' your way, ya selfish!

so i decided not to get in your way

it's time to do it my way and that means

gettin' away from you, ya selfish!

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this is such a bore! staying home and stuff...i'm being lifeless and lazy. i'm so darn lazy to upload all the pictures, argh. i hate hate hate my results... aih...

rambled @11:39 PM

Friday, December 25

guess mine is not the first

heart broken...

my eyes are not the first, to cry...

I'm not the first to know

there's just no getting over you...

Hello, i'm just a fool

who's willing to sit around and wait for you

but baby can't you see

there's nothing else for me to do

i'm hopelessly devoted to you

but now there's no where to hide,

since you pushed my love aside

i'm not in my head,

hopelessly devoted to you

hopelessly devoted to you...

my head is saying "fool, forget him..."

my heart is saying "don't let go"

hold on to the end, thats what i intend to do

i'm hopelessly devoted to you

But now theres no where to hide

since you pushed my love aside

i'm not in my head

hopelessly devoted to you

HOPELESSLY DEVOTED to you

Olivia Newton John

Hopelessly Devoted To You

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I'm lazy to post, but... oh well...

this post is called YAMATEH~! *inside joke hehe*

aite, i can't remember whaat day, what time, and whatsoever la... the outing was so last minute, didn't bother to remember the minor details... went out with JoEe, JoLeen and Kim... OU of course, our usual reigning area. so, i said i was gonna be a wee bit late, these people actualy came LATER than me... so as i waited, autumn(JoJO), winter(Kim) and spring(JoEe) passed... 1 whole year i waited for them. heh. anyway, we settled for some food at Sakae Sushi, we started to talk about YAMATEH, then all of us kept saying Yamateh. all of a sudden, i said Yamateh out loud really loudly, the music stopped and everyone was quiet. EMBARESSING SIOL! anyway, LOL, so we decided to pay and leave. the stupid bill was like RM115... geez, the food we ate was so not worth the money. my 30 bucks flew :( however, we had a good laugh so ok la~ then we went to toilet to camwhore... went starbucks... got some amazingly funny shots and joee was like phone bowling. roflmao on that 1. i was like buing stuff, so was kim and jojo. like OMG jojo's blue nail polist looks awesome, i want one too. ;x ok, thats all of it. i'm so lazy to put up the pics. sorry.

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aite, second outing.

Christmas Eve of DOOM

spent with Sexy people ;)

Christmas eve, as said. Tio sabo by government. PMR results came out, i'm not happy bout it so lets not talk about the result aite? i cried a several times, heh, i know... i'm such an emo fag, pathetic, say whatcha want. i know. anyway, after that i went over to OU, met up with joee, she had to work. so i joined Denise, KaiBoon, Daniel and Pei Wen... we walked quite aimlessly, joined up with another big groupie, Ashmen SHaun and another fella... Jason? i think? then yeah, denise and i went clothes camwhoring. she got a friend to buy her a top.*how smart, i should try that too! anyone willing to buy me a top?* Lol, just kidding. so blablabla, walked and talked and i had to leave. so before i left i went BBQ stove seeking. bouts a 1ft by 2ft stove, some charcoal and fire starters. tadaa, i'm done. when i reached the taxi stand i wanted to call for a drink at the bah kut teh shop... but then after order mum came to fetch, therefore i cancelled the order. too bad lady, i'm sorry.

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MERRY CHRISTMAS

BBQ NIGHT DINNER hearts

3 event posts in 1. heh.

aite. i woke at 11+ and rushed to Tesco, received an SMS from JoEe saying Bran went OU to find her. Dagnabbedit i wanna go see him too :( anyway, lets not talk about that case. bought the food to BBQ,set up and marinated the food and stuff... i did the stove to set fire... started to BBQ at about 5+ gosh there are so many things. i'm dead full now. played charade. i laughed so hard at faces. anyway... i feel like some lard sitting on a chair now. anyway, theres nothing much to say. no photos snapped tonight. MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

ily

Firbs

rambled @9:48 PM

Wednesday, December 23

die

hard

samurai!

nah just kidding...

i'd get ksed like hell...

not enuf pots to survive a solo

i can't pin~

life sucks...

and some people just have

retarded brains...

its so retarded that i

just have to

wanna

slap the ass outta

their face.

naturally i can't

so.. oh well. wasted.

rambled @7:33 PM

Saturday, December 19

why is it just so hard to talk to you?
why is it that you're giving me all this shit?
why is it that you just have to make me wanna scream?
why is it like this?
why is it this bad?

what is it that makes you so special?
what is it that makes you so balless?
what is it that just pisses me off?
what is it that stops myself from slapping you?
what is it that is so hard to give you a piece of my mind?

why are you doing this?
what are you trying to say?
why should i even listen?
what would make you stop?
why am i so frustrated?!?!?!?!?!?!

rambled @11:59 PM

Friday, December 11

- you -
first name - Firbie
nickname - Fir, Firbs, Firb, Feebo, Girlgirl and many more
name you wish you had - I'm very satisfied with my own name
what do people normaly mistake your name for - uncountable man... ==
birthplace - SJMC [subang jaya medical centre]
timing - 3-4pm i think?
single or taken - single x)
zodiac - Aquarius

- appearance -

height - 152 cms

wish you were taller - erm... DUH!

eye colour - I'ma big brown eye girl~

eye colour you want - I like my own eye colour...

natural hair colour - dark brown under sun. black in flourecent light.

current hair colour - still natural.

short / long hair - long

ever dye your hair in a bizzare colour - NO WAY!

last time you did something dramatic to your hair - can't remember

glasses or contacts - neither

make up - only when required

hair extensions - nope.

painted nails - during holidays only~

- in the opposite gender -

eye colour - doesn't matter to me

hair colour - as long as its not lalafied

shy or outgoig - a bit of both won't hurt.

looks / personality - both matters much

sexy / cute - SCARMBLE BOTH UP! *drool*

serious / fun - there are needs of both

older / younger - OLDER! pls ==

turn on - how he makes me happy

turn off - smokers... excessive vulgarities... extremely sensitive + over protective

- this or that -

flower / chocolate - chocs

pepsi / coke - don't really like both...

rap / rock - ok ok la...

relationship / one night stand - relationship

school / work - both :)

love / money - BOTH! BOTH! BOTH!

movies / music - both~

country / city - i dun mind both...

sunny / rainy - i like both

family / friends -i love both

- have you ever... -

lied - WHO HASN'T?

stole - x_x i duwanna answer that question

smoke - what a disgust, NO!

hurt someone close - yeah

broken someone's heart - yeah

had heart broken - not that i know of. *i'm almost heartless*

wondered what was wrong with you - plentiful

wished you were prince / princess - long time ago

liked someone who was taken - can't say no

shaved your head - NO!!

been in love - not that i know of.

used chopsticks - embaressing if i hadn't

sang into the mirror to yourself - AHAHAHAHAHA YEAHH !!

- favourites -

flowers - orchids

candy - i like all that tastes good

song - i don't wanna name them...

scent - something mild and soothing

colour - i like all, its just how you use it

movie - plenty...

singer - none

word - too many lor

junkie - bo

website - many...

location - many...

animal - many...

cried over someone - yeah...

wishing i could change myself - so many...

think that you're attractive - in different ways sometimes yeah ;x

fairytale as your life if you must choose - the little mermaid

sports - yup... i don't mind them

- 8 random facts about you -

im a girl
i don't like noise
i'm different when i'm around different people
my mood swings
straightforward
i have a blog
i love my friends
i love my dog